I’m feeling frightened today
Well, the issue I blogged about yesterday hasn’t yet been resolved. I don’t know if it ever will.
On top of that, I’m scared.
I don’t know what it is… But I feel… I feel myself slipping back into the hole I was in last summer. The depression.
I ache, I’m exhausted, everything is beginning to turn into a chore again, I’m angry and sensitive and sad and yet, I fear numbness is on its way…
I don’t want to be numb.
Maybe it’s change that led me here again. I got my heart broken by putting myself out there and trying to make friends. Maybe it’s failure that led me here again.
How do I fight it off? I still take my medication, I’m still working hard to exude positivity… What am I doing wrong?
My heart is so heavy. It’s weighing me down and I fear that soon, I’ll fall behind and be run over.
I’m so, so tired.
Where’s the light at the end of the tunnel?