I’m feeling frightened today

Well, the issue I blogged about yesterday hasn’t yet been resolved. I don’t know if it ever will.

On top of that, I’m scared.

I don’t know what it is… But I feel… I feel myself slipping back into the hole I was in last summer. The depression.

I ache, I’m exhausted, everything is beginning to turn into a chore again, I’m angry and sensitive and sad and yet, I fear numbness is on its way…

I don’t want to be numb.

Maybe it’s change that led me here again. I got my heart broken by putting myself out there and trying to make friends. Maybe it’s failure that led me here again.

How do I fight it off? I still take my medication, I’m still working hard to exude positivity… What am I doing wrong?

My heart is so heavy. It’s weighing me down and I fear that soon, I’ll fall behind and be run over.

I’m so, so tired.

Where’s the light at the end of the tunnel?

About Ky

I'm Kylea. Or Ky. Or Foxy. Or Hey, You. Or whatever you decide to call me. I'm passionate, creative and weird. I have depression, anxiety and chronic fatigue. I love journalism, the paranormal, makeup, animals, crafts and lots of nerdy and not-so-nerdy things. I'm never bored.

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